Is This Good?

Carla, our social worker, called Tuesday night. She said that Holt contacted her about our home study. Evidently, the sister adoption agency - Holt Sahathai - did not like the sentence in our home study that said I had to take Clomid to get pregnant with Will and Kara. Crazy huh? She said that Thailand would not understand what this meant and it would hold us up later. The government would make me get a letter from my doctor explaining what Clomid is and why I had to take it. For those of you who don't know, Clomid is a infertility drug. I wish we had never even put that in there. It really has nothing to do with the adoption. We haven't been able to get pregnant this time but I did not want to take any medicine. I feel that it is not what God was wanting us to do this time around.
Anyway, Carla is going to change that page of our home study and send it to Holt. I am just a little happy to know that someone out there is working on our paper work. We are waiting for our fingerprint check to come back from the FBI, waiting to hear from Shoahannah's Hope about our grant, and waiting for the end of June to come for our placement. Sometimes I just want to email Marissa at Holt and say "Hi, I'm here, are you there?". Nothing can prepare you for this waiting.

In Christ Alone

I cannot let Easter go by without saying how thankful I am to Jesus Christ. He is all that I am, all that I have, and all that I want. I thank Him for dieing on a cross over two thousand years ago so that I can eternal life with him. He has forgiven my sins and some are real whoppers! I am not perfect and don't claim to be. He doesn't expect me or anyone else to be. He accepts us right where we are. I love our pastor's saying " he doesn't call the qualified, he qualifies the called". During our Whip, Hammer, and Cross production two weeks ago Pastor made the point that Jesus was thinking of me on the cross - Tracy - how awesome is that? The best part is that he didn't stay on that cross, oh no, he rose from the grave after three days. He is preparing a place for me and all other saints in heaven. Jesus freak - not religious- is my heritage and my heart is to pass it along to my children. I truly believe that I was put on this earth to be a mommy to Kara and Will and help them in their walk with Christ. It started when they were just "twinkles in my eye" or as Will says "when I was in your eye, mommy?". We are praying also for our Thai jewel. We don't know them yet but God does. Their destiny is being changed by the saving grace of Christ. It is so exciting, just gives me chills.

Ready to Wait

Our last leg of paperwork was sent to Holt this week. There was a letter that came from the state health dept. about our adoption agency and a letter from the adoption agency itself. Marissa said that is all that she needs. Now our dossier will be translated into Thai. I wonder if I will be able to get a copy of it. I think it would be so cool to have copies of our dossier in Thai and in English.

Holt Sahathai sends referrals of kids from Thailand to Holt every quarter. There are usually 5 to 8 children in each group. Holt got their latest group this week. Marissa said that we definitely were not getting a child out of this group. I knew it would probably be too good to be true since we just got our dossier in. She said that we are now number 3 on the list. Soooo we will be in great standing to get a baby referred to us at the end of June. I am so happy. That gives us some time to sell our house in Castle Ridge and get our money together. When they refer us a child we have to pay $8900 to the Thai government.

Marissa also sent a letter to Shaohannah's Hope for us. They are an adoption grant ministry founded by Steven Curtis Chapman. We are hoping to get a grant from them. We still have to come up with all of our money up front and then they will reimburse us.

I am already thinking about the babies room. I want to do lime green and royal blue if it's a boy and lime green and pink if it's a girl. I am also thinking about elephants. Elephants are one of the symbols of Thailand. I want to to it in more abstract form though. I am searching the Internet for ideas.